Trusting the One Who Changes Things

Well, sometimes my life

Just don't make sense at all

When the mountains look so big

And my faith just seems so small

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf

You have been King of my glory

Won't  You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark

It's so hot inside my soul

I swear there must be blisters on my heart

Surrender don't come natural to me

I'd rather fight You for something

I don't really want

Than to take what You give that I need

And I've beat my head against so many walls

Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band 

Is playing this hymn

And Your grace rings out so deep

It makes my resistance seem so thin

You have been King of my glory 

Won't You be my Prince of Peace

-Rich Mullins

Human Nature

It seems as though the human nature of a person has trouble accepting the aid of another individual, and if we do then we must give something in return that is equal or greater than that which was given. There is a problem with this factor when God enters the equation. There will never be a gift equal or greater than God's gift of love. We will never be able to give Him the gift of salvation that He once gave us.  This may make some of us so aggravated, either at ourselves or at God. In the moment of irritation and maybe the feeling of inadequacy we tend to lose sight of how we act toward God. We may end up trying to fight through our problems alone. 

 This song beautifully shows how we want to make things work out on our own, but in the process of all of our "time wasting" we find ourselves down at the bottom in a tomb of depression and shame.

I'm sorry to tell you this but you can't do it alone. You won't make it through the darkness and you won't make it though the hurts without God. He is the only one that can conquer the battle.

2 Chronicles 20:15-17

And he said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the LORD unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God's.

To morrow go ye down against them: behold, they come up by the cliff of Ziz; and ye shall find them at the end of the brook, before the wilderness of Jeruel.

Ye shall not need to fight in this battle: set yourselves, stand ye still, and see the salvation of the LORD with you, O Judah and Jerusalem: fear not, nor be dismayed; to morrow go out against them: for the LORD will be with you.

We will never be able to repay God for what He has done for us and is doing for us, but He doesn't ask us to repay Him. He simply asks us to commit to Him and to follow his ways. He asks us trust Him and to not reason within ourselves but to find the reasons in Him.  He will guide us into the knowledge that we so desire.(See Proverbs 3:5) If we want to be guided by God we must first commit to Him. I'm not talking about a blind commitment that leads to being uncommitted. There is a divine place that one can be structured in commitment. In order to find this place one must love. 

2 John 1:5

And this is love, that we walk after his commandments. This is the commandment, that, as ye have heard from the beginning, ye should walk in it.

Okay, in order to follow the commandments of God we must first love Him. It is easy to do something for someone you love but if you hate the individual you will want nothing to do with them. With that being said, if there is no relationship between you and God there will be no commitment. In return, there will be a life filled with misery from chasing false dreams and identities, always wanting something new to fill the empty void that God once occupied. 

In Short

What I'm trying to explain is, we cannot and will never make this life without God. He is the ultimate peace, comfort, joy, love (the list goes on). Without Him we will never make it. It doesn't matter how inadequate you may feel, you are worth it. God doesn't want you to go take a cross to save yourself He just wants to have you for His own. All He wants is your heart. He is asking for nothing more and nothing less. When you have given your heart to Christ, completely, things change. The heart is healed and changed. The nature of humanity is changed and it is all changed because of the hand of God. We can't change ourselves. Let God do the work. He is a master at fixing broken situations. Keep the faith and hold on.